I have been one whiney baby the last little while. I've been in such a funk, throwing a month long tantrum, honestly just wanting to drink wine, eat junk, and get fat. This is the person I was before I found bodybuilding, way before I started competing, and who I fight with every day.
I feel alot of people think that once you've "transformed" yourself, once you've made the decision to get healthy, work out, compete, etc, that it becomes easy to do, that it's second nature, but that couldn't be farther from the truth. I met Miryah Scott when she visited Winnipeg and had a brief conversation with her on how her inner fat girl (her words lol) tries to get the best of her every damn day. This coming from a woman who took 3 WBFF world titles consecutively in 3 years after having competed once before. Alot of her motivation, I assume, comes from having to keep fit for photo shoots, appearances, general schmoozing but I really don't think she would say it's ever easy, even now.
Bottom line, I'm so done with feeling sorry for myself and I am DEFINITELY done with this yoyo sh!t I've done for the last 3 years. This year though I had begun to try to find balance the scales tipped and I let life take me on a roller coaster ride. We made some not so good pit stops and I gained 10 more pounds than I wanted to post competition. Contrary to what you might think I don't, in fact, like doing the "My pants won't go past my ass" dance every morning. On the bright side my extra fluff is going to make some damn nice muscles and my ass will look fabulous strutting that Fitness Star Stage come April 2013. Oh, did I mention I'm competing?? Yup, you heard that right!! Come back tomorrow for my blog about Fitness Star International, the incredible show they put on in Winnipeg, and why I decided to hitch my waggon to their horses.